ULTIMATE BETRAYAL

You are what they call a 'predator' looking for your victims in the world of the dark web; you sought your prey. There was no stopping you,

She was in a dark place when she met you. She had divorced her husband, lost her first child, and was being bullied and harassed at work.

She thought you were worldly.

She later discovered you were not worldly but from a world, she knew nothing of.

She thought you were intelligent.

She later discovered you were not so much intelligent but without conscience, manipulative and narcissistic.

You kept your dirty little secret to one side; few saw the real you.

You knew that should your secret get out, life as you knew it would come to an end.

You liked the image you thought you portrayed to the world, sophisticated, refined, scholarly, and cultured.

You were, however, in reality, only a small fish in an even smaller pond.

You knew those close to you would never have contemplated the depths of your depravity.

You were so full of your own self-importance you thought you were untouchable.

You were the master of your game.

You played it hard, and you played it well. Day by day, month by month, year by year, you broke her down.

She was just another pawn in your game of lies and deceit, something to amuse you when you were bored.

You brought the flames, and you put her through hell. You both knew all the truth, she could tell.

She came from a world not many understood.

She was vulnerable, naïve, and just wanted to belong in a world that did not see her.

She worked hard to ensure she could look after herself, not lean on others when she was sick, and be there for her friends.

She was not a person who let people in easily; she had seen too much pain.

She was a simple person, only ever wanting to feel safe.

She asked for nothing but gave everything.

You saw with your own two eyes the excruciating pain she would go through, not being able to sit or stand, shaking from the pain, in and out of the hospital, yet still going to work more days than not; she had no other choice. You knew the concoction of pills and painkillers did nothing to ease the pain.

You knew if she didn’t work, she had no income; she was not a citizen of this land. Yet no offer of help.

You watched her suffer, year after year, time and time again, getting irritated by the inconvenience of her illness and depression interfering with your gratification.

You were so morally corrupt that you used all her physical, emotional, and mental pain and suffering against her, showing no compassion and taking full advantage at every opportunity. Violating her in ways no one would imagine, deep down to her core. Feeling a perverse sense of superiority.

You used her lack of financial knowledge, low self-esteem, illnesses, and disabilities against her.

You lied from the first time you met her. She now knows you don't know how to tell the truth.

You were so conceited, advising her not to go with licensed financial advisers. Proclaiming to be her financial adviser since 2010, how your superiority as a financial adviser could provide comparable, if not better, financial strategies, manipulating her to loan large sums of money, using her money as your own. Insulted and affronted at her audacity to request documentation and interest or her advising that she wanted to get other financial advisers' opinions; after all you did for her, she was so ungrateful. You would fly into an incoherent, nonsensical panic, doing and saying anything for this not to happen and to placate her.

You calculated every cent she earned, contacting her when you needed money, persuading her to do as you said. Chastising her when she spent money you had already allocated, unbeknownst to her.

You had no apprehension about her only subsisting, going without, while you and your wife lived the high life.

You threw her enough scraps to keep her in line.

You told her what she wanted to hear; I love you, I care, I’ll look after you, you will be fine…

You treated her like a petulant child.

You degraded, defiled, gaslighted, and demeaned her just enough for her to misunderstand the severity of your abuse. Convincing everyone around her she didn't know what she was talking about, telling them to ignore her and she would go away in time. Oh, how you underestimated her.

You needed her to keep doubting, second-guessing herself, when she would ask questions, wonder why things didn't make sense, making sure she did as she was told.

You would leave her floundering in enough self-doubt, self-loathing, and despair that you could come and go as your ego needed stroking.

You happily took what you thought was everything from her; as far as you were concerned, it was yours anyway. She deserved nothing. You had no real intention of paying any of the money back.

You thought you could leave her in the gutter, homeless, destitute, begging for food when she was no longer of use to you.

You believed you had done nothing wrong.

You knew after the loss of her children; she had only been holding on by her fingernails, trying with everything she had to hold on to any piece of light.

She felt like something had physically died inside her, the last ray of hope gone when with no remorse at all, you said:

‘it doesn’t look like you will get any of your money back, your young enough you'll make it back'.

In a blasé tone, as if to say, ‘It is what it is, so sad, too bad, you’ll get over it, cést la vie’.

You were so drunk on power. It was like you were a cat relentlessly toying with a mouse, knowing you should end its pain but wanting to indulge and savour in every ounce of the deranged, sadistic, macabre pleasure you could from it.

You knew every word you told her was like a nail in her heart; you had not just taken every cent she had but every reason to live.

She did not understand how she could trust you, judge you so wrongly. She felt you planned to take everything from her from the day you met; there was nothing you wouldn't do to make sure she had nothing left. Even changing paperwork after you were no longer talking, telling everyone she didn't know what she was talking about, even though she had all the proof.

She did not understand how you could watch her endure years of pain and suffering; be so immoral, unscrupulous, and uncompassionate. Meticulously, step by step, knowingly orchestrated the demise of everything she had, knowing that this was the end for her.

She was in a total state of shock, lost, dumbfounded, and amazed at the level of your greed, the incredible lengths you went to, and your lack of ethics, integrity, morals.

She had hit rock bottom many times before, but there was always a little faith, a small piece of hope, a tiny light. She was a fighter, but this time there was no fight. What was the point? There was nothing left. She had lost all her faith, hope.

She felt everything she had worked for emotionally, mentally, physically, financially you took from her. She had worked so hard so she could look after her family. The only way she knew how buy a home that would look after her family should anything happen to her, this was her safety.

You emotionally and mentally destroyed her; every second of every day, she teeters on the edge of sanity, life. A lesser person would have completely given up by now, but she knows that everything comes to those that wait, and it's only time.

She knows she did nothing wrong but trust something that should never have crossed her path.

Yet, you still live; you see her as the originator of your undoing, blaming her for everything that has happened, taking no personal responsibility, showing no remorse, insight. You play the victim well when she knows the truth.

She was not your enemy; she was not your weakness; she was not your undoing. Your greed, ego, self-loathing, need for attention, control and insecurity was your undoing. Deep down, you knew you were nothing and never would be; it was all a façade.

Your only remorse, regret is that you got caught; people now see how heartless, callous you are, the real you.

She knows you and your colleagues and will wish they had listened to her. She had tried to give you all a soft out, even after all the gaslighting you all did.

She has some big decisions to make, ones that go against the grain. She knows no one is going to come out of this unscathed, and not due to her, but your pride.

She knows going to court will have a far wider impact and consequences than just you, but you don't care who gets caught in the crossfire. All you have even cared about is yourself.

You have given her no choice; you buried your head in the sand, hoping it would all go away, still lying to everyone. Showing the world the real man you are, the coward, shallow, pitiful man.

You didn't believe she would betray you; you thought her health would continue to deteriorate and never improve (it had been years), were too stupid, and were too uneducated to work it out.

You were so egotistical and self-absorbed that you thought you could do no wrong. It didn't have to be like this, but your greed would never let someone so menial, inferior, and beneath you get the better of you.

She hopes maybe one day you'll see the light, see sense, and realise she has nothing left to lose. She had all but hit rock bottom when she met you.

She lost her pride and dignity the second she stepped through the door when she first met you.

Some say in life, what goes around comes around, but in some things, only God can forgive.

She hopes you're somewhere on your knees praying, begging God for forgiveness.

But she knows you are too arrogant and conceited for that.

Sure, the people reading this may think, 'what an idiot' – She knows she probably would. But it's amazing how easy it can happen to anyone, anywhere; he won't stop, and he does not care. He is forever scheming and plotting and will take any opportunity he can get.